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Scratching People's Backs

I wrote a post for today.. But I was just thinking a few things..

So war.. it sucks.. There's this song that says that war is bad, y'know.. what is it good for.. Absolutely nothing.. YEH! Anyways.

So I was thinking.. You scratch my back, I scratch yours.. Listening to Tatu and they're saying "If they hurt you, they hurt me to," and it got me thinking.

Friendship, partnership.. you have someone's back, and you expect them to have yours.. its like a form of pressure, a tug of war if you will, between loyalty.. And although loyalty is a valued treasure amung society, what if it's also the one thing that causes war between families, and communities.. what if this loyalty that we cherish and call a good thing, really backfires.

So then being loyal to ourselves,and those that have our backs.. What if that person we're fighting for is wrong? Or what if its not our fight, and it changes into an unfair fight? Are we really being loyal? Or are we cauing more pain? What is right?

I know that sometimes I wish my boyfriend would rip off the heads of those that make fun of me.. Tell me I shoulda been killed at birth, and other such things.. But what if I'm tainting our relationship. Breaking his sensitivity to make a bar that he needs to uphold.. An expectation of loyalty that may break his gentle nature just for my back? What if I'm wrong? Should I then just fight my own battles, and that way its my consience if its wrong? Or should I expect someone who loves and cherishes me to defend me because I'd willingly jump the gun and kill the first person to robs him?

Although it'll always be true.. To my friends, my family.. when this world, and people hurt them and make them cry.. They jab a knife into me too.. but maybe this time I'll try and keep my temper in check, and instead of fireing the gun at those that did them wrong.. I'll spend my time trying to mend the wounds of those they hurt.. Instead of spending my time trying to get the owner of the bullet.. Those broken hearts that I love mean more to me.. Than the assholes that beat them down. Maybe one day Karma will catch up with them.. Or maybe not. Its not my call.

Sincerely,
Kendra-Dawn

posted by Kendra Robillard @ 3:12 p.m.